just letting it happen… .
so as of late meaning the past month i’ve allowed to have a friend slowly progress itself into a love interest. The past 3 years I have moved far from home and back, fell in love moved again went through serious real life situations most will never experience, have my heartbroken and walked out on, learned to be alone, traveled, met amazing people and started to go outside my comfort zone, quite a job start a new job, all processes of finding myself, moved a couple more times, regressed a bit, dated in what i thought was what i wanted, became unhappy, got a little more unhappy, changed it, broke up with a great guy with a lot to learn, moved, got comfortable in my own skin again, talked to guys, guys got sketchy, i got sketchy learned from it. All these things we do in life make us realize what we want, what we don’t. I am sooo notorious for thinking im happy but really im just taking attention and giving attention til i get bored. which then leads me up to now. I kept the happiness inside for a while because i had no idea what talking and telling storied would develop into, and then realized im not bored, im not worried, im not stressed (well lets be real im always stressed) i have this weird feeling of acceptable trust in what he says and when he says it to me. I love learning new things about him and he always listens to me and remembers. He is patient with me and everyday is another day we figure each other out and learn who the other is. If this fails, and i get my heartbroken at least i know it wasnt forced it was a chance, some people have their opinions and thats nice keep it to yourself, because i could go on forever about what i think, but i wont because if youre happy im happy. Vacation is in 41 days where i will be with the best guy in phoenix, california, and vegas. I will also spend time with my twin and her significant other road tripping the whole time. I will get to see addy and love her up for time spent apart. <3 that is all
